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AFTER KAHLILLA
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December 30
Here is song that Kahlilla first heard as we drove along the
beach toward Eli Creek on Fraser Island a few years ago.
There are also various versions of this song on YouTube. You can see one of them by
Clicking Here
MESSAGES
by Xavier Rudd
So now come sit down
Will you talk with me now
Let me see through your eyes
Where there is so much light
We are biding our time
For these myths to unwind
For these changes we will confront
So please beware
With every place that you head
Look to your soul
For these things that you know
For the trees that we see
Cannot forever breathe
With the changes they will confront
You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things
Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things
Well this sacred land
It has seen many hands
It has wealth and gold
Yet it is fragile and old
And all the greedy souls
Just don't care to know
Of the changes it will confront
So speak out loud
Of the things you are proud
And if you love this coast
Then keep it clean as it evolves
Because the way that it shines
May just dwindle with time
With the changes it will confront
You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things
Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things
So hold nice and close
The ones who get to your soul
So that when it is cold
You won't feel so alone
'Cause the roads that you take
May just crack and break
With the changes you will confront
With each gift that you share
You may heal and repair
With each choice you make
You may help someone's day
Well I know you are strong
May your journey be long
And now I wish you the best of luck
Well I know you are strong
May your journey be long
And now I wish you the best of luck
You know some people they just won't understand
no they just won't understand these things
Thank you for your message but I don't understand
no I just won't understand these things
This wonderful song brings to life Kahlilla's character in so many ways.
Our Lilly loved the coast and she would always frown and diplay her most fierce cat's bum
whenever she saw rubbish littering the beach, and her beautiful innocence would question... "Why do people do that?"
Kahlilla's road cracked and broke but she was never alone.
Her gifts healed people and she chose to be kind, always making someone's day that little bit better.
We have been making the most of each day and keeping pretty happy over all. Eli has wrapped us up in his love and has
successfully prevented us from crashing to the ground. He is our gorgeous, happy, little parachute boy.
Eli and his Uncle Craig on Christmas Eve
Eli and his Aunt Clara on Christmas Day
Indi with her Christmas Crystal ball
Eli is worried that his lovely mum has finally gone round the twist
Eli pretends to be asleep, hoping I will stop singing to him
We now have a new kitten and her name is ... Goobin SweetHeart. We often told stories to Lilly about a wonderful girl
named Banilla and her 2 kittens, Goobin and Schtubin.
Banilla was really Kahlilla, Goobin was Gypsy and Schtubin was Dennis.
It seemed appropriate to name the new kitty Goobin. We think Lilly would approve.
We will take a photo of her as soon as she stops sprinting about the house. Her and Dennis are almost friends now.
November 10
The Relay for Life was an amazing 24 hours.
We were not looking forward to it so much, anticipating many tears and emotional strain, however
we were surrounded by our friends and family and the wonderful people of Phillip Island and
beyond, and all was indeed grand.
Nell and Aunt Jess made the gorgeous TEAM LILLY banner and many wonderful friends helped to decorate the
ceiling of the gazebo with frilly, silky pinks and purples.
The loving ceiling
Our wonderful friends Helen and Bronte carry Lilly's baton during the early hours of the morning.
The baton was one of Kahlilla's fairy wands
with her da's tied to it
Nellie and Jessie, all dressed up and ready to go
Uncle Craig went around flipping kids upside down in order to get their lunch money.
The looney with the plastic butt cheeks is Colin (I am sure Lilly would have loved this sight)
Darling Eli joining Kahlilla's fight - well eating a wristband anyway
The return of the enormous smile
Kahlilla's friends decorated the most beautiful bags with candles inside , so sad that they had to be brown
Team Lilly
November 8th 2008 is the date of this year's Relay For Life at Phillip Island, and we
are getting all fired up with TEAM LILLY.
Please have a look at 11th November 2007 to read about Kahlilla at last years Relay for Life.
Anyone can join our team, so if you are interested in a trip to Phillip Island, please
Click Here
to go to the "Relay for Life" website.
Where it says "Search for a Team" type in LILLY
and follow the instructions.
The plan is for the team to keep a baton moving around the footy oval for 24 hours, so if you want to
join in for a while, you can nominate which part of the 24 hours suits you best. There is also some space to set
up a tent and camp the night. It is always a fun time with music and activities for the kids and we can devote
this year to Kahlilla. We may have a piece of her brown blankie to share around as our baton.
October 19
We are OK and enjoying our beautiful island and our wonderful family and friends.
Indi with her darling little brother.
Eli loving (grabbing) our very patient Dennis.
October 13
Spring is in the air and we are doing our best to make the most of life
without our Lilly. Eli is getting a good look at the wonderful beaches and it is good to share
these special places with him.
Words cannot describe the cuteness of our boy's wrinkly little bum.
Quickly learning that the sand don't taste too good.
October 9
Our lovely little Gypsy Booshka was hit by a car just near her home.
Another wonderful being that will be missed.. especially by her Dennis.
Eli is just wonderful and going a long way toward filling a huge hole by smiling and laughing and loving
us so beautifully. We must not allow him to play on the roads.
October 2
I had a blood test today and as the steel of the needle came into view, I felt the
apprehension, the worry, knowing that I was about to experience pain.
Kahlilla had so many blood tests and I thought about what she went through each time.
This kind, gentle little girl facing the steel needle. Asking for the nurse to wait until she was ready, feeling the apprehension,
then taking a deep breath Kahlilla would so bravely announce, "OK ... I am ready"
I cried and cried ... the nurse today must have thought I was just a weak man.
We are missing our Lilly so very much.
September 22
When I used to arrive home from work, Kahlilla would scream out "Daddy!" and
leap to her feet, running toward me with her adorable smile and gleaming eyes.
I would drop to my knees and Kahlilla would wrap her loving arms around me giving me a soft and yet strong hug.
It was as if she was melting and moulding around you.
I would squeeze her with all my might, then whisper in her ear... "Hi"
And she would whisper in my ear ..."Hi"
Then she would excitedly tell me all about her day.
Such magical memories ... Thanks little girl.
We often sit on the deck of your cubby house in the warm spring sun, thinking of you and how
much we would just love you to be here playing and smelling the flowers.
Please click
HERE
for a tour of Kahlilla's Cubby House.
September 16
What an extraordinary few weeks!!
Lill used to make milky rainbows with a multitude of colours swirling around.
Now there is a multitude of emotions swirling in our hearts and minds.
We have so many delightful memories of Kahlilla, yet the smiles are soon accompanied by tears.
Why does this happen?
The memory is what it is. Life or death does not alter the memory. The memory is unchangeable.
So why the tears? This memory will never happen again whether our little girl is still with us or not.
I guess the tears are flowing because we just miss Kahlilla so very much.
What a hollow gap we have been left with. If only she had been a horrible child!
Then again, had she been horrible , we would not be having the enormous smiles from the wonderful memories.
Bitter sweet indeed.
OK OK ... That's it... I am lost in a teary haze of milky rainbows and am starting to haver.
Sparkly eyes in 2005
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